Credits
Monday, September 10, 2007
Yup, my title says it all, no more freedom. No more freedom to speak whatever i want, no more freedom to do whatever i want. Stress, Work, loads of Work, is tying me down. Ever since that day when i announced that news, i lost my freedom of speech, i cannot say whatever i want. I am no longer a free man...instead, i need to live everyday fearing that someone would expose my secret.
This kind of life really sucks man...but no choice. I have to admit and confess, i told a lie...and i felt the consequences of it already. I've been tied down by the lie, it has prevented me from saying whatever i like, speaking out the truth. Leaving me no choice but to even do this to my blog. Only people whom i've invited can read my blog...i really got no choice. Im so damn sick of this...sometimes i do regretted telling that lie...but i really had no choice...i have to please everybody. I know all i need is to please God so that my rewards are in Heaven. But how can i not please everyone so that i can have a better life on Earth before having eternal life in Heaven.
Even while im blogging about this...im afraid...im afraid that anyone thats not allowed to be in my blog happens to gain access to it. Haix.
I really have alot of things to do...Art, holiday homework, tuition homework. Whats worst is that, theres Art lesson and tuition tomorrow. This is really driving me crazy, i wanna just quit tuition but im afraid i might need it to pull my maths results up. But im somehow confident of advancing to Secondary 4 express next year. But at the same time i dont wanna be over confident. Life is getting harder and harder for me.
Whats even worst is that everyday when im in school, i need to face some, actually its A, sickening classmate which thinks he's Mr Popular but the fact is that everyone dislikes him. He is nothing but a big bully who only knows how terrorises other smaller size people. Haix, enough of him bah...maybe next time i'll scold more =p. Im tired now...gotta go sleep le.
29o1o7 <3. I Love you, my dearly beloved =)
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